A Second Start

I finally got another start at the nursing thing. I know it's what I really want to do, but sometimes I still don't feel motivated to do what's necessary to really make it through. It is more intense than the last program I started since it is an accelerated program and yet I still feel a lack of motivation most of the time. How can it be something I want so bad and I not chase it and tie that dream down so that I can reach it, that goal I've been telling everyone I want. Have you ever had an experience, be it with a person, thing, or event, and it made you perceive all other things differently? I would elaborate on that question as it relates to my motivation towards school & my career, but I honestly don't know where it's leading. I know they are related but I'm too scared to think it all the way for fear of what it will mean about my feelings of said person, thing, or event. Realizations of one's true feelings can be a scary thing....