It's about time for me to move. I am like a professional apartment searcher. I can look all day for an apartment online, in the newspaper, in the rent/apartment guides, but I should really & I mean REALLY take the next step in the moving process. My follow through is always waaaaayyyyy too late. Now my happiness or just my sanity rests on me finding a new place to live. I am now starting to shut down to people in my home because I hate living there. I hate coming home to that house. I hate the commute from & to work to that house. I hat how disgusting I have let my room get at that house. I hate the sweet temptations when I'm trying to loose weight at that house. I hate that no one really likes to cook dinner at that house so I come home to nothing really. I hate that I come home late in the evening to find that my cat is hungry & now there's basically no food there to feed her (definitely gotta pick that up today). I hate that there is no television available to watch the majority of the time when I get home out of the 4 tv's there because everyone wants to watch something. I hate that it's in the middle of nowhere, you can't do anything without a car. I hate that I can't put anything wherever I want it. I hate that I can't walk around nude. I hate that I can't blast the music in the morning. I hate that I eat less than 50% of my meals there. Soooooo basically I'm doing A LOT of hating. I mean I am drinking, showering, and brushing my teeth with not water but HATER-ADE. Harboring all those negative feelings and not really expressing them or releasing them can take it's toll on a person. I don't even want to pay the bridge toll, so why would I want to pay an emotional toll. So let me just hit up Craigslist again for the 100th time & actually respond to some of these ads. Wish me luck & that I don't get f***ed.